Friday, March 27, 2009

Then You Wail Away

There's an article in the NYT this morning, slamming New York State Senator Gillibrand for having worked to defend Philip Morris during her tenure as an attorney at Davis Polk & Wardwell in NY in the 90s.  (Gillibrand was a junior congresswoman, appointed to fill Hillary Clinton's seat when she moved on to be Secretary of State.) I can't tell if the article is attempting to point fingers at the Big, Bad Tobacco Industry for behaving in egregiously unethical ways, attempting to pull up all the negative stuff they can on Gillibrand just for the sake of political trash (FYI: in the nastiest 20th District Congressional Race to date, working for Philip Morris and Altria is the worst the RNC could come up with), or just attempting to fill four columns with text. That the article is so unclear in it's general nastiness is very irritating.
  1. I like Kirsten Gillibrand; I think she's smart and savvy, and for all that she's never actually said so, the major issues she focuses on for the benefit of her constituency are those protected by the Bill of Rights. And she reads that Bill pretty damn liberally. I'll keep her, thanks.
  2. I work for an organization that puts a HUGE amount of time and effort into ripping apart Big Tobacco. I don't now smoke, as a stipulation of my employment agreement.
  3. I think people who need a Big, Strong, Super-Smart Scientist (or government agency) to say that smoking is bad and dangerous and harmful and will kill in order to believe that smoking is bad and dangerous and harmful et al are just plain stupid.
  4. Much of the time, I'm convinced that stupid people deserve the circumstances brought about by their own stupidity. Including those who believe that people and corporations having everything to gain by turning individual members of the masses into trusting suckers mean us all no harm.
  5. I miss having the autonomy to be self-destructive and light up when I damn well feel like it, but quitting my job in order to have a cigarette seems like a bad idea.
I'm in an exceedingly bad mood, so perhaps this post should be taken with a grain of salt. Or ten.

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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Progress at 43Things: Become Car Free (2)

Car = sold

Yesterday I turned in the plates and registration, signed over the title, and handed the keys of Clara, the claret-coloured Alero, to her new owner. Today I fax in the insurance cancellation paperwork.

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Progress at 43Things: Crochet Through My Yarn Stash Before Adding to It (4)

Muffler + Hat

I’ve had two skeins of this great nubby wool in shades of blue and gray sitting around forever. This weekend, I finished up a simple muffler and brimmed hat in an easy double-crochet pattern.

There’s a tiny ball of the yarn leftover; I’m going to find a pattern for fingerless gloves and whip them up in a dark charcoal, using the leftovers for edging.

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Five More Sleeps

Number Six will take place in a featherbedded sleeping bag on the floor of my flat in Brooklyn. (Note to self: take no naps this week, or you'll throw off the counting.)

I no longer own a car.

My colleagues are planning a "welcome to NYC" outing for my first Friday night. I'm not supposed to know about it.

My driver's license has my Brooklyn address on it. So do the new collar tags I have for my cats.

I'm moving. It's actually happening. I'm trying to breathe and not get overwhelmed. Really, I don't think I have anything else to say about that.

*~*

I have been reading the Torchwood_House community of late, reading anything that doesn't have overt Season 2 spoilers, since I can't yet bring myself to watch those episodes. I'm savoring all 26 episodes of this show, and enmeshing myself in love for it. I will unapologetically do so in my own way. Anyway, the comm. Had a huge post yesterday with results from an annual vidding contest. I downloaded four and have had them playing on non-stop repeat on my computer for the intervening 30 hours.

I don't care if you are a Torchwood fan or not, this fan vid is absolutely awesome. Go. Watch. Marvel. LOVE.

Separately, I have no idea how I don't own a single track from Savage Garden. Affirmation is my new favorite song.

Affirmation, Savage Garden
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say good-bye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say good-bye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse T.V. evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say good-bye
Until you say good-bye


*sigh* So much love.

5 more sleeps.

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

Progress at 43Things: Crochet Through My Yarn Stash Before Adding to It (3)

UFOs becoming recognizable...

I’ve spent the last several days crocheting up a storm as I sit and visit with friends and family, saying good-byes. I finished my vaguely misshapen, monochromatic tea cozy, which is currently nestled o’er top of my little ceramic teapot. And I’ve made great headway on the muffler; another 18 inches or so (about 25 rows) and I should be done.

I’ll have to remember to take some photos.

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Sunday, March 15, 2009

Progress at 43Things: Move to NYC (12)

Less Than Two Weeks Now...

This moving thing is so totally real today -- my keys to the flat arrived in this afternoon's mail!

1. All of the furniture I don’t need has been sold.
2. Everything but my computer equipment, my craft bag, a short stack of magazines/novels/sudoku puzzles, clothes/toiletries for the next 13 days, my coat, and the cats has been packed and is in the storage facility, awaiting the movers.
3. The car is prepped and ready for sign over on the 23rd.
Now I just have to do the last minute things—change of address with the USPS, cancel local accounts (dry cleaning, library card, cafe club, etc), and plan the last round of visits to the people and places I’m leaving behind.  The last is what makes this so real; in some ways I feel like I'm finally running away from home.

I will not cry.  I will NOT.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Progress at 43Things: Reduce my Impact on the Environment and Practice Sustainable Living

For the latter half of 2007, I embarked on a “Greening” experiment— a very watered-down version of what Colin Beavan (No Impact Man) and Vanessa Farquharson (Green As a Thistle) attempted in 2006/7. Each week, I added one new Green task or habit to my repertoire. Below are my notes from December 31, 2007, concluding the experiment.

I always spend the last day of the year reflecting on the previous 365 days, noting what I’ve done well, what I could have improved, what I didn’t think enough about, and looking forward to the castles I’ve built in the air of the coming year. Today, most of that reflection is focused on the Greening experiment—officially tracked since August, but begun with consideration and practice in early February.

I don’t remember a time when I didn’t know about negative environmental impacts—but beyond the simplest actions (recycle, pick up trash from where it doesn’t belong, don’t leave the water running or the lights on when you’re not using them), I never really did much to bring about positive impact, instead. As I said to Miles on Saturday night, I always thought it was far more important to help people than to help animals or the environment. It wasn’t until last fall that I realised we can’t possibly save the health and well-being of people without protecting the planet, and last winter when I started to figure out how I could help.

In October of 2006, I attended a conference about genetic research advances. I’m a fundraiser, not a medical professional, but it’s still true that the more I know about cancer-related research, the more effective I am in my job. A great many of the details discussed by the frighteningly qualified people in the room went right over my head, but I learned quite a bit about the new field of genomic medicine—the study of genetic markers within individual people and how those markers are influenced by environmental factors. (This is the type of research which will eventually pinpoint precisely why Winston Churchill, who smoked like a chimney and drank like a fish, suffered and died from complications related to strokes at 90 and Dana Reeve, who never touched a cigarette, succumbed to lung cancer at 44.) At the conference, there were a great many opportunities to engage in conversation with the subject matter experts. Unafraid to admit my ignorance, I asked several scientists the question I am most often asked by those who know about the work I do; “Why don’t we know more about the environmental causes of cancer, and why isn’t more environmental-medical research being done?”

Fifteen months ago, the answers were short, and they were all the same: we can’t yet isolate enough environmental factors to make the studies meaningful, and we don’t know enough about genetic factors to understand majority impact of environmental causes. What I took from those conversations was, “There are so many unchecked hazards in our air, in our water, in our soil, that we can’t even begin to look at what makes people sick and what doesn’t until we know which people to look at.” Human beings have been so irresponsible with products and materials, dumping things in water, burying things in the ground, burning and releasing things into the air, and there is so much that we have allowed to alter the make-up of the planet which must sustain us, that the most brilliant medical minds couldn’t pinpoint which of those things are causing our bodies to mutate and suffer and die. The days when I realized this were the days when I first started looking at environmental health as something that I needed to fix.

I poked around the internet for awhile, wondering which group to join, where to start, how to bring about mass societal change, what my role would be. I read a lot of blogs, googled all sorts of things, read wikipedia avidly, but couldn’t figure out how to go from “reading” to “doing.” And then my friend Katie sent me a link to the blog of a crazy guy in Manhattan who was trying to live a no-impact life. Not exactly what I wanted to do, but kind of cool to read about. I checked in daily, and things began to coalesce on a subconscious level.
  • I learned about Freecycle. And when I got tired of packing and moving all of my stuff (4 apartments in three years), I used it to give my perfectly good stuff to people who could use it.
  • I learned about food miles, and realised that the apples and potatoes and peppers I bought so regularly at the supermarket down the street were not supplied by the farms surrounding my city, as I had always assumed, but flown in from Washington and Idaho and Mexico.
  • When I changed jobs and began traveling every month, I realized that frequent flier miles were based on the number of miles traversed by a jet and extrapolated the burning of jet fuel for those miles compared to the burning of gasoline for my car; I panicked and searched out alternate transportation (which is non-existent where I live).
And some time in April I sat back and considered what I had done, what I was doing, and what I wanted to accomplish—and finally figured out that I didn’t need to start by changing the rest of the world. I needed to start by changing me.
So I did.
  • I planted a garden. I didn’t buy herbs or zucchini all summer long, though I did need to supplement my tomato crop. And I learned that it’s just as wasteful to plant things you don’t like/won’t eat as it is to buy and throw them away.
  • I tried composting (in a container, which smelled and attracted fruit flies and drove me crazy—then chucked that idea and built a surreptitious, against-the-rules heap in a little strip of brush woods near my apartment). Now my parents have agreed to build a heap in their backyard (I have the plans all drawn up), and we can share.
  • I recycled all I could (plastic bottles, steel cans, glass jars, cardboard, office paper, paperboard, hangers, plastic bags and bag-like wrappings) and saved everything else I could for re-use, things like twist-ties, ribbon, twine, envelopes delivered in bill packets, scrap paper, buttons, paper clips, ZipLoc baggies, etc. And I now seek out glass and plain paper packaging, eschewing plastic as often as possible.
  • I stopped buying things I didn’t need, and stopped watching television and reading magazines, knowing that the advertisements would only convince me that I did need something utterly useless and unnecessary.
  • I switched to 100% recycled paper products that contain post-consumer content (paper towels, tissue, and toilet paper), and cut up an old t-shirt for kitchen and cleaning rags—to waste less.
  • Between the compost, recycling, reuse, and lack of purchasing, my entire trash output is the size of a single grocery sack once a week. Since I use cloth bags everywhere (groceries and all other shopping), I’m eventually going to run out of my stockpile of sacks—no idea what I’ll use to measure trash then.
  • For the things that I do buy, I started thinking about how to make them more sustainable. I shop for groceries at farmers markets, where food is local and fresh, and bring my own (reused) bags and containers to tote things home in. I carry a mug and water bottle with me everywhere. I stopped using tea bags, and wash a strainer instead. I changed the food for my cats to natural, healthy dry food packaged in paper and their litter is a bio-degradable, flushable, corn-based product that won’t cause them any harm. I’m still testing eco-friendly soaps, shampoos, toothpastes, etc to find ones that I can live with, and have switched over to natural, do-it-myself cleaning products (i.e. baking soda, vinegar, lemon, and water that I mix myself as necessary) and sustainably produced, gray-water approved dish and laundry soap.
  • I’ve been supporting the most sustainable, earth-and-people-friendly businesses I can; joining an organic CSA for produce, buying pasture-raised, grass-fed meats and cruelty-free eggs/dairy, shopping independently-owned local grocers for dry goods, shopping second-hand for books, clothing, and household goods when possible and researching organic, sweatshop-free, fair-trade options for when I won’t be able to. There are times when “corporate” is an overall better option than local (Starbucks offers fair-trade coffee and solid wages/benefits, unlike the three local coffee shops in my town on both counts), but I limit my visits/use to “treats” rather than regular support. I’m not at 100% with this—but I would say that 90% of my purchases follow these guidelines.
  • I changed the way I use what I have, too. I rearranged my home to be more energy efficient; seating areas are near windows to take advantage of natural light, and electronic equipment is arranged so that it’s unplugged when not in use (DVD player, computer and stereo, but also lamps, microwave, and toaster oven). I save “waste water” in the shower and when washing dishes (by hand) and use it to water the garden, houseplants, and compost. I use appliances rarely; the dishwasher is run only when I have enough dirty pieces to fill it to capacity (i.e. dinner parties for four or more); two loads of laundry are done per week, with one of them hung on a rack to dry; external lights and internal thermostats are arranged on timers and kept off when not in use.
There is so much else I’ve changed, too, but so many other things I still need to work on—I travel so much, and while I always choose the greenest option possible (train over car, traveling light, accepting only what’s necessary, vegetarian diet on the road, eco-friendly hotels, etc), that’s not always a great consolation when I’m on and off of airplanes every other day. I moved out of a mid-size city that made me feel crazy and claustrophobic and into a small town with air to breathe and land to plant, but am now a twenty-mile drive from the office with no carpool available. I’m still learning about available opportunities and trying to educate others when possible, but I don’t want to preach or be offensive, and I’m more worried about that than I am about inadequately conveying a message. If I’m going to become part of a larger community of earth-conscious, health-focused people, I need to get over that last, more than all others combined, because improving health and well-being for everyone is still at the root of why I’m doing this.

I can become a homesteader, as is my intention, looking forward two years to when I will purchase a home, plant a full garden, and keep chickens, ensuring that I enrich the soil, purify the water, and keep from polluting the air on my own. But one person is not a community, and I’m not in this just for myself.

So, I’m through with the one-conscious-change-per-week experiment (the final two weeks were of the gift-giving process—handmade items sustainably wrapped, and experiential gifts of theater/music tickets and local meals). And I will continue to live with the changes I’ve made and adopt others as they occur to me and are possible. But my focus now turns slightly outward, delving into the work and awareness of my immediate local community.

Problem is that I’ve abandoned a lot of these habits over the last six months (late 2008, early 2009), as I’ve had little to no control over my personal living environment. I need to redevelop my good habits, and continue moving in a positive direction.

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Progress at 43Things: Become Car Free (1)

I have wanted to be able to live my life without owning a car since 2003, when I was in grad school in Massachusetts. Unfortunately, a job as a community organizer covering 1000 square miles of territory and settling into a home in the suburbs made that impossible. And yet, it never stopped being a strong desire – so much so that when I began looking at where in the world I wanted to make my home, opportunities that required me to continue owning a car became less attractive to me, even when there was no car-free direct comparison.

I think the first reason I jumped at the chance to move to NYC was for the public transportation and walkability of the city.

I used walkscore to help me find a great, walkable neighborhood. I’ve mapped out my subway routes to and from work, and all of the fantastically cool places I’d like to visit/hang out. I’ve been looking at bicycles, and have arranged to attend some bike maintenance classes in Brooklyn, so I know what type of ride to purchase for myself, how to care for it, and how to properly fit it. I’ve bought a walking map, and have begun building a personal neighborhood map through Google Maps, noting what amenities are available locally.

I’ve also done the work of paying off my car (6 months early) and finding a buyer for it—two weeks from tomorrow, I will no longer be the owner of a personal vehicle. I’m not convinced that alone will guarantee a car-free life, though; I’m going to need to do quite a bit of work to get used to walking or biking everywhere. I’ll need to determine how to handle delivery/courier service. Figure out how to manage public transport rather than taxi cabs.

No longer owning a car is a massively huge step in the right direction, but it doesn’t precisely equal “car free.”

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Moral Judgment is a Barrier to Healthcare

I am having some Twitter and Facebook rant-conversations about healthcare tonight, and I need to save them so that I can review the statements when calmer -- there's a lot of absolute rage, but there are also some really good salient points that I've not articulated so well before.

Conversations:

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Progress at 43Things: Move to NYC (11)

For Sale...

With Moving Day just three weeks away, it’s time to get rid of what I’m not bringing. Over the last week, I measured furniture and sketched out floorplans of each room to see what would fit in the apartment.  Items I couldn’t use or didn’t need were compiled into a list and first offered to friends and family (my sister took a fabulous cherry end table and a lamp; my parents nabbed the HEPA-filter vacuum). I’ve just now listed the four pieces they didn’t want on Craigslist—already have a buyer for the Baker’s Rack and the Sofa Table, waiting to see on the microwave and the other end table. (They’ll be delivered to Good Will on the 21st if they aren’t purchased by then.) Later tonight, I’ll begin packing clothes.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

So that's why I hate people today

I don't know why PMS *always* surprises me. I mean, hello, every 4.5 weeks or so I crave brownies and pretzels, develop a bitchier-than-God complex, and midway through the afternoon get slammed by self-doubt and an overwhelming sense of inadequacy. You'd think that eventually this would be calculated as Situation Normal, right? That mind and body would work together and conscious thought would become, "No, Lissa, you don't really want to quit your job and down a bottle of scotch, however maudlin and anxiety-riddled you feel. Go home and take a bubblebath and paint your toenails and go to bed early."

Why the hell does that never happen? Moments like this, I rethink my stance that selling eggs to a fertility clinic is unethical.

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